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I will start by saying some things about me!
First of all,I am a child of God,I rededicated my Life to Him in 2001
I start my days with My Lord,
He is my guide and Savior and Lord of my life!
Sometimes we need to wait upon the Lord,and pray without ceasing,
things don't seem to work out
and lately I found out if I pray and wait,My Lord comes through
All the time!
I live in Northern Michigan,Up in Grayling.
I am married and have three children.
I Love to read and decorate my Home.
I was born in Detroit and raised in Warren Michigan
My dad was a Mig welder.
Today.July 20, 2003
Well,life gets tough sometimes when you try to love people
and try to fit in.
I never fit in to much.I try to love
people but when I do and just get
to know them they leave
my life or hurt me badly.
Its hard to survive in this world
the way it is today.
Trying to please people is really
hard..one day i'll get it right.
I will start by saying some things about my days!
Today,Saturday July 26th 2003
I found my Lord in Januarary 2001..
I had a bad mouth always
swaring and being vulger...
when He saved me He took my bad
mouth away..
bad language doesn't get us know where,
it just
looks like we are very insecure
if we use the Lords name
in vain,or sware at others,
its terrible all this bad talk
from others mouths,
specially when they put it on the
internet for young eyes to see...
Jesus took my drinking
alcolhol away,
my bad language and lots more out of my
life..what a friend we have in Jesus.
Today,July 31st, 2003
Well,today will be a challenge,
gotta move the old
fridgerator out and put food in the new one,
the new
fridgerator is a gift for my birthday day tomorrow,
then
hubby is taking me to dinner saturday the day after my
birthday,
and then we'll go to walmart,
and just be together
and look around...
I pray the Lord to give me strength today
and guide me...
Today,August 2nd,2003
Today I am gonna try to start a diet,
I can't stand this,I
can't fit into my pants I wore last year...
its terrible...I
have been feeling bad about myself,its terrible...
Today,August 4th 2003
Well,today I'm gonna do some major cleaning to the
basement,
yucky it needs it....
my birthday dinner went
well,
hubby and I had good time together and had a nice
steak dinner,
praise the Lord....thank you Jesus.
August 14th,2003
Well,soon a new hot water tank will be put in,
hubby tried
to fix the old one,
but no luck..we need hot water..
Thank
the Lord they added to the loan we had for the
septic..
things are getting harder in the finances lately..
August 22,2003
What a week,kids with rashes and don't know what it
is,arguements with hubby,
breaks me up inside.One day Jesus
will make it all right,
His love is always there for me.
September 3,2003
Well,kids are in school,things are quiet during the
day,gives me time to do things I need to do.
Hope they do
well in school.
September 19,2003
Well on the 17th of this month I made another attempt to
quit smoking,
I through my cigerettes away
I bought the
patch,I wore the patch for a day,
it gave me such a headache
that I couldn't move,
I cried for hours,I went two days
without a cigerette and then today I smoked,
and I BOUGHT a
pack,I will try to slow down for
now and let God take this
from me,a thorn in my side is what it is.
September 22, 2003
The quiting smoking didn't work quite yet,but one day.Makes
me think of Paul in the Bible,
the thorn in his side.
Its a rainy day here in Northern Michigan,cloudy and cold.
The kids are home today,
teacher meeting.
The court date for the kids on the drug charge went well,
they will have that held over their heads until December.
Hubby and I are not getting along to well,I have asked my Lord to
show me how to love this man..
September 23,2003
Today was quiet and relaxing,
I got to spend over a hour in the Bible
studying the Holy Spirit.
I found out Humbling ourselves is a must,
submission is a must and serving others is
what we must do.God is good..spending time with
Him is very important.
My youngest daughter is gonna be in the next book
she is a true poet,poor thing caught a cold.
October 5,2003
I started work today,I'll work seven days
then they'll decide who stays at this location
Its a dollar store and were unloading boxes
and putting up shelves and walls.
The store was just built and I pray my Lord
gives me strength.
The Men of Grace concert at church last night
was very awesome!
October 19,2003
Two weeks ago I applied for this job at the new
Dollar General store they put up in town,they hired me
and my daugther and 18 others to set up the store and when
it was done they would call ten of us back to keep the Job.
I was one of them,and its been years since I have been on
a register but I got the hang of it,its part time but thats
all I need.I enjoy it and I am working when the kids are in
school most of the time,but alot of times its two to eight thirty.
Its a nice store and mostly I stock and run register
I had to find something because these four walls were closing in
on me.
My daugther didn't get the job and I felt bad and she was upset
with me but she got over it.
I can't understand her alot of times,leaving home and making
her life a total oppisite of the way she was raised
Her dad and I provided three thousand dollars for her college
and she dropped out after three months and left home and moved in
with this guy,the other day I called her and she said he was
calling her bad names,I don't know what I would do if he hurt
her physically.
My other two kids are so special in my heart to,its hard to let go
and I'm having a problem with that.My youngest daugther is gonna
be 15 on new years eve,and its hard because she told me she's
leaving home at 17 and with this boy she's been seeing for five
months,how strange for them to make a commitment to God and then
fall back on it.
I pray the Lord turns her heart around,my oldest says she's gonna
spend the night here tonight and her boyfriend got mad,well
she's not married to him and she told him she's gonna stay here
for the night.I sure do miss her and wish she would of handled
her life differant.
Thursday,December 11,2003
From November 22 to now has been one big test or trial,
I know God has a plan and a reason for all this,
and to get through this storm with mom and getting through
Christmas,I really need to focus on the blessings my Lord has
given me.I was really tired before all this but now I'm just warn
down mentally,physically and I feel drained of energy.
I just sometimes don't understand why mom has been so sick most
of my life any way,and why all of a sudden it seems all this is layed
on me like I know what I'm doing,but its the Lord's hand doing it,
not me.
Later in the morning,on December 11,2003
Giving mom shots and medication is something new,
given shots isn't my job,its a nurses job and I feel
strange giving them,I love mom but its hard dealing with this.
But its gotta be done and I was one who did it and I pray they
take her off them and give it in a pill form.
My daugther did the shots and meds today,she did well and is a blessing.
I will do what I can for mom but my daugther is gonna do most of it.
See,I'm a home body,I love being home and cleaning,cooking,gardening,
reading and 2 times a week going to church and going grocery shopping,
and paying bills and taking care of things at home for my hubby.
One day my Lord will reveal the reason,but I pray while I go through
this that He helps me to trust Him.
I realize its not only me in this storm,my kids and husband are here to.
Jesus will get us through this together,and my church family has been
so supportive and loving,and hubby and I are getting along great.
Sunday on December 14th we will be married for 15 years,
We are going out to celebrate,to see a movie and have dinner,
after church and potluck dinner.
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